Sunday in St.John :)

September 18, 2011

Sunday in St.John :)

HAPPY SUNDAY!

Holaaaaaaaa I am BACK :D

LOTS of things are playing around my head as a reminder for me to realize them all! Gosh, a loooot of them! Fun THINGS of mine, but need more effort and rite priority to make them be realized! Writing, updating journeyofkezzy blog, starting make another blog for book!? (with some certain stories), paper about Martin Scorsese, make short movie about life here, make the prayer list, daily schedule, etc etc... Pile of lists! They are FUN! But really I DO NEED some more effort to make them right. My mind always distracted and unstructured. So sometimes really hard to start something new. Only if I am really in the under pressure situation. Maybe create some under-pressure environment would be goooooood for me? maybe...;p

BUT, before that! This is my time to stop being distracted and focusing on what GOD wanna say to me today :)

Well, with all the muscles crashed out I woke up this morning at 11.25. And I couldn't make it to go the Vineyard Church x( But gladly, I met Mike and Marilyn, and we decided to go to the 5pm service at St.John Catholic Church at 604 E Armory Ave, Champaign. I agreed since there's no Christian Church giving service at evening. We went there... and all the Idea that came up to me for the service is..... I FOUND PEACE! Realy DO!! From how the sense of the building, service room, the interior design, the lamp, the artistic window glasses, the liturgy, people inside, the quietness, AND THE CHOIR! Yes.... I miss all those songs...... and the voice of the choir which sounds like angel voice echoing inside all the building. PEACEFULLY.....:) I did take the hosti for the communion also :) .....

I found something peacefully lies in my soul... dunno why... :) Maybe, I just found me in the service. Kinda miss the classic service of church. Since I've always been in Vineyard Church, which is a contemporary church. I do love all the contemporary songs too! They are amazingly touching my heart. But, maybe I really belong to the kind of classic Presbyterian/reformed/lutheran church.. OR just mixing!! haha. Yes. The idea of mixing service is cool! Hope found one here. LOL. We also met the sisters there. Sister Mary and Lucia (If I'm not mistaken). We took the coffee and donuts downstair and met them. They are really NICE! I found PEACE when talked with them. Agh. Marilyn also had a good time, they're speaking Spanish so it was really really good. When I see Sister Lucia, and her young lovely eyes. Oh, I found a place to trust. Which is never happened before since I was here. Hard to explain, how you see into someone eyes and you know you really can trust her, and you know she has a sincere love. Yes it is. No objection, no suspicion, no clumsiness, nothing awkward... just flowing and you DO FEEL there is nothing fake in it, all is SINCERE. IT IS awesome!

With Sister Lucia

I was shortly reflected my self, about how do people look into my eyes? What they could find in it? Something sincere and loving? No suspicion but rather care? .... or....? Maybe people don't even wanna see into it anymore. Too dark and hard. Maybe Yes... or.... maybe No.... She was also asking us to visit the sisters house in front of the church. She was really enthusiastic! We entered the house and .... you know what I wanna to say... again... Peaceful! The house is really neatly comfy! You kinda feel a shelter for helpless people is in it. Exactly. Sister Mary was there cooking in the kitchen with Sister Lee from Korea (born in USA but descendant from Korea). They are really really nice and warm. If I could have a wish, I wish I could stay with them in the house. SO warmly niceeeee! But I know maybe I'll be the one who makes it messy around, so here is good. Hahaha. Maybe stay over for one night will be great. ;p .... and in the end... Sister Lucia asked us to go to the prayer room and we prayed together :') So sweet. She prayed for us, asked blessing for us and our study, and she was mentioning that our meeting in the church was not an accident, and hopefully we could get back again nexr sunday :D

Honestly, I was a lil bothered - since I belong to the Christian church and not Catholic one. BUT DO believe me, it is different. What I thought was wrong. She is NOT kinda the church-worker that keeps on searching people, asks to join, with a forced smile, in order to increasing the number (even for a good reason tough) etc etc. But she was like you can come over here whenever you really want to, because this is the shelter for any of you who need to. I did feel it. Did I just see JESUS in them? the real Jesus? ...... sometimes, Christian people have a prejudice for catholic church -- since Christian is the one who did the reformation to it. And I realized I sometimes got trapped into it. I always limit what is the possibility if right and wrong, good and bad, etc etc. And today God really teaches me a lot through it. Maybe I will not going to the sunday service every week, I will go to the church that I suppose to be (hopefully any mixing church out there -- balancing of teaching, discipleship, worship, etc) BUT I will positively say YES to be involving in their volunteering services. I've been searching the volunteering service around the town, including the President Award for volunteering thing. But I didn't find any. AND when Sister Mary told us about the volunteer service in the church -- such as go to the orphan shelter, service elderly, playing with kids, clean houses, etc. I kinda of wanna shouting "Yes I am IN!" I've been searching for these things! :D But I didn't screaming nor shouting. I just gave a smile and enthusiastic smile :D I will join for sure! Every saturday.... kind of. :) Well that's some story about this Sunday evening. Awesome Sunday! Sunday at St. John :) Mucho Gracias sisters, Mucho Gracias Dear GOD :)