Be healed soon, Dad.

Oct15.

Yesterday I got news that really broke my heart. My dad got into the hospital, again. He fell down inside the house while no one around. He was alone. His head and hand were bleeding. He was found hours later when my mom couldnt reach him by phone and asked my neighbour to check on him. That is totally sad. I fell into pieces as I live thousand kilometers away from home. I couldn't do anything. I want to see him. I want to take a good care of him. I won't be ready to accept the fact that the goodbye kiss at the airport was the last kiss I could have. I broke down. I trembled. God please heal my father. I love him so much. He is my hero my role model. He has given everything in his life for thr love o his life, my mom and us --his beloved children.

I haven't found any man as brave as him, as loving as him, as funny as him, he is the best dad in the world. He trusts us more than anything, He lets us grow in fullness, see the world and be able to reach out dream .. fullfil our vision from God...

As I am now. Here.

The fact that I will be pretty much isolated from the access to my family if I decided to sign the paper, that mentions: "...available to be deployed anywhere around Indonesia, especially the eastern part the country..." as a part of my contract agreement with the organization I work with now, was pretty terrifying for me...

I pray. I pray. And I pray.

God will heal my beloved DAD.

I pray. I pray. And I pray.

He will be healthy! Super healthy! Be freed from all the sickness and illness. My future kids will be having a tons of love from their grandpa. What I don't have from both of my grandpa :)

I believe. I believe. And I believe.

I'll be home this Christmas and we will go to the church together. I will hold his hands! 

I believe. I believe. And I believe.

He deserves to see all of his kids get their dreams in God and He will be the one who enjoys together in it.

I believe God take a really good care of him, more than what I could do...

The word of God today stregthens me. Again and again. Thank You Jesus. You know the best for my father, more than what I know... :)

You love him more than me :)

The same God who saved my father in the past years will be the same God who have the almighty and healing hands for my Papa...

“If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you . . .” (John 15:7)— that is the way to keep going. Where we are placed is then a matter of indifference to us, because God sovereignly engineers our goings.

“None of these things move me; nor do I count my life dear to myself, so that I may finish my race with joy, and the ministry which I received from the Lord Jesus . . .” (Acts 20:24). That is how to keep going until we are gone from this life.

Keep going :)

God know the best :)

Amen.

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