Brokenness

My body broke into the illness this past days. I found myself lying powerless on bed for days. I literally have no spirit in my heart. I am lost in the direction of this life.

Last night I visited the doctor again. Yet the answer from the physical and blood tests are always the same: they found nothing. The depression I found on this journey somehow unbearable. I don't understand my body. My body rejects me. My mind gets numb. My spirit dies. I lost the connection with Father. I miss Jesus so much. The tears on my sleepless nights are the only things could translate the pain and longing.

I bumped into this verses this very morning....I, somehow, delighted....

Jesus please help me, please heal me, I whispered.

12Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that believeth on me, the works that I do shall he do also; and greater works than these shall he do; because I go unto my Father.13And whatsoever ye shall ask in my name, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son.14If ye shall ask any thing in my name, I will do it. 

MHCC:

12-17 Whatever we ask in Christ's name, that shall be for our good, and suitable to our state, he shall give it to us. To ask in Christ's name, is to plead his merit and intercession, and to depend upon that plea. The gift of the Spirit is a fruit of Christ's mediation, bought by his merit, and received by his intercession. The word used here, signifies an advocate, counsellor, monitor, and comforter. He would abide with the disciples to the end of time; his gifts and graces would encourage their hearts. The expressions used here and elsewhere, plainly denote a person, and the office itself includes all the Divine perfections. The gift of the Holy Ghost is bestowed upon the disciples of Christ, and not on the world. This is the favour God bears to his chosen. As the source of holiness and happiness, the Holy Spirit will abide with every believer for ever.

Amen..

Kezzy.